mk this will probably be my last comment in here bc i have turned pretty much to facebook. its alot better , i wish alot of you guys would get it! and i really dont know alot of people who still use xanga... so i wont be surprised if i dont have any comments.

all i have to say about my life is :

FRIENDS = AMAZING ( LOVE THEM TO DEATH) YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE

&

LIFE = SUPER STRESSED @ THE MOMENT... I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW TO DESTRESS ( I swear the only time im happy is when im with my friends ... i guess thats why they are here ...i love them to death. thanks for being there guys. and i have a couple of friends from childhood that i would like to let know that i miss them every day and night & that i hope they have the best life possible )

WELL THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY ( DONT ASK  WHY ALOT OF THIS IS IN CAPS, I HAVE NO IDEA)

*ps if you want to hang out just call my cell* you dont have the # just ask , i dont bite

Ok I decided to update. Although i really dont know why because everyone has left to facebook. *tear* ok im over it. hmmm maybe I should get one. nah i never update this or keep track of this as it is.

Well lets see went to winter formal this weekend. that was awesome. hmmm first i went to pick up the date...then dinner. saw everybody **still upset that colleen & jennifer didnt go** but anyways yeah. The dance was alot of fun too. I actually danced & had a great time. I got to see people all dressed up & different for once. thats always fun. Went to the after party....but didnt stay long....idk why though. hmmm. i'll have to think about that. & blah blah blah. afterwards jenay came home w/me to spend the night. many laughs many laughs. fun times fun times.

besides that i quit my job & starting tuesday im going to start conditioning.>>>because its a way to have fun & improve in alot of aspects....or so my father tells me. bullshit.  oh well . so back to being busy i go. monday-swimming laps   tuesday- conditioning  wednesday-swimming laps  thursday-conditioning & pitching, grounders, and hitting throughout the week when i have an extra minute. but i had a nice kind of month off.

so anyways hows life for everyone else?

well alot didnt turn out but ill try to figure it out in the morning. ugh & everything isnt that clear either. well any solutions? im open. wow the blurryness is really making me look deformed. gross

Im sorry i know i never update anymore. Ive just been so busy w/hs ball, school, & seeing my friends when i can. ugh ....im totally sleep deprived. i would tell you about my life but i pretty much just mentioned it when i said hs ball, school & friends. AHHHHH i just want to go to sleep. here ill give you the lyrics to a song i love...you can read them instead of hearing me talk on & on.

 So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered I lie
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot then we can die

I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know?
You say you don't know
I say take me out

I say you don't show
Don't move, time is slow
I say take me out

I say you don't know
You say you don't go
I say take me out

If I move, this could die
Eyes move, this could die
I want you to take me out

I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know?
You say you don't know
I say take me out

If I wait, this can die
If I wane, this can die
I want you to take me out

If I move, this could die
If eyes move, this could die
Come on, take me out

I know I won't be leaving here with you

                                                        Today i was thinking about the death of Jessica Dehan and i know i didnt know her that well but im so sorry that she had to die like that and my heart goes out to all of her close friends. I hope you guys pull through this.  

     And to all of my friends i just wanted to let you guys know that i love you all and if we fight i want us to work through it. you mean so much to me. i never want to lose you guys.

>>>>MAY JESSICA DEHAN REST IN PEACE

ok so ive had nationals all week.....gosh im soooo exhausted. i cant think right now...my brain is all like>>>>>0q8273ywefzih. *jumbeled up* well lets see on tuesday we played a team from texas...(won that game) it was 2hrs long cause we were tied for like ever....i pitched all 10 innings. it was fun though. it was an adrenaline rush. srry if there are alot of typos...like i said i cant think. wednesday we played a minnesota team & won...then we played an illinois & lost. thursday another minnesota team.....we won. today we played the bullets from kansas.....and lost....dont even want to talk about that game.

   hey guess what im going to washington next week for nationals to sub for another team!!!! my true team! oh yeah party in washington. im nervous though. im flying down w/them but my rents wont be there....IM FREE! just wait though on the plane i will sit by some kind of crazy looney who wants to tell me all about his sad life then he will fall asleep on my shoulder and drool all over me. then he will pull a water gun out & threaten to kill himself. or i will sit by some 80 yr old grampa who will be all hittin on me....which reminds me...the other day im drivin down the highway & i look over. there is a 60 yr old man whos smiling @ me....then he looks back over & winks @ me. im goin to have to work on my ppl skills

i really dont have anything to say right now. dinner in westport last week was fun w/katherine & michael.i dont know why but michael makes me so hyper. need a  happy pill hang around him & katherine for awhile...haha well thats it ttyl!!!!

well friday was fun.....went to the mall w/jenay  & jennifer. HA oh my gosh that was actually kind of fun. i didnt think it would be cause thats not what we usually do...but anyway they made me get a skirt. wait excuse me a *skort*. lol.  then that night went to the plaza & hung out w/ katherine, jennifer & michael. i finally met katherines boyfriend nick!!! oh my gosh about time. but we didnt have time to talk or anything. oh well. that night was fun except i found out something i really didnt want to hear. it was kind of embarassing. doesthis person have no respect for me whatsoever to go around asking stuff like that. oh well i guess i know who my TRUE friends are.  thankyou to those who are.

   well the games this weekend were ok. we won the 1st 2 but lost the last 2. the last one we should have won. that pissed me off.  this team is starting to frustrate me. damn. oh well. well i g2g talk to you all later